Life as we know it...crazy!

I wanted to take a minute to write my sweet Evelyn a letter, as our lives will shortly change by adding a new baby. It's rather personal, but I feel that one day I will look back on this and be grateful I wrote down some thoughts. My Sweet, Sweet Evelyn, You recently turned two, and my heart burst with how much you have grown up. You have surpassed all my expectations as my first born and continue to amaze me. Evelyn, you are the oldest of our little family and honestly I had no idea how much I needed you. You came into my life at the perfect moment, and I wouldn't change it for the world. When Daddy and I started to try to bring you into this world, you didn't come as quick as we would have liked. However, after the loss of a previous baby, we knew you would be well worth the wait to fill our broken hearts. You changed our lives the second we found out we were pregnant with you. Looking back, I had such an easy pregnancy with you. Even after a traumatic birth, making yo

I know most of you won't care about this post, but I know my future self will be grateful for it. Potty training is so tricky and it really tested my patience. I know everyone experiences it differently and each kid is different. I did a bunch of research on tricks and tips. I didn't just stick to one, I tried a few different ones and even combined some. Let's start from the beginning. Spencer and I wanted to have Evie potty trained before our new little one arrives. I can't even begin to tell you how many people told me I should wait until the new baby came. A good chunk of these same people told me Evie was too young (she is 22 months) and it wasn't worth my time to even try. Here's the thing; I kind of get why people told me these things, but it really made me doubt my abilities to teach Evie a hard task. Let's all be kind and not mom shame those who try things differently and earlier than others. I am with her all day, every day and paid attention to a

Well... it's been far too long since I have written. So much has happened. I can't guarantee that I wont be bouncing all over the place. So I hope you are all doing well and enjoy this post. Back in January 2019, we found out we were pregnant. Spencer and I were really excited as we had been trying for a while. We were ready and no one new, except maybe one or two people. Being a diabetic has some perks when trying to get pregnant. If you become pregnant and are in good control you know exactly when you are pregnant because your blood sugars suddenly become crazy. I found out at 3 weeks, just like I did with my other two pregnancies. However, as the days came and past, something felt weird. I had scheduled my appointment with my OB at 5 1/2 weeks. Besides constant headaches, I never got sick or nauseous. At 7 weeks, I began to spot bright red blood. Almost instantly I began to painfully cramp and huge clots started to pass. Somehow it worked out that Spencer had that day off

My little family just got back from paradise and I wanted to share some of the things we did. We booked our Maui trip at the end of September 2018. Little did we know that booking it when we did would be perfect timing for helping us feel peace after a miscarriage, growing closer together, and watching Evie experience new things. We saw many rainbows in Maui, and they sure had more meaning than just sun shining after the (many) many rainstorms during our trip. We literally saw at least 5 or 6 a day Plane ride (s): This was Evie's very first vacation. When we told people we were going to Maui, and taking Evie, so many laughed and said, "Good luck," I am here to tell all of you doubters that it was very successful and we plan on taking her back there. Evie is a very busy baby. She hates to be carried (unless she's tired), she loves to climb, run, and you know... never sit still. I really was anticipating a really long flight both there and back. I packed all the

Happy 2019 everyone! I hope your year has started off great and I hope it continues to be wonderful! I would like to consider myself to be pretty organized. Some people may find it weird that I love to keep things tidy and have a spot for everything. I hate clutter and huge messes. Yes I know I have a baby who loves to get into everything, literally. So I have had to learn to let her be little and let there be messes. Like most people I know, I binge watched Netflix show "Tidying Up" with Marie Kondo and her KonMari Style. Although fairly organized before the show, I felt inspired to get rid of more and organize deeper. I feel SO much better when my house is clean and things are put away. Spencer always makes fun of me for this slightly OCD quality I have. As I have been taking night classes and not getting home until 9 pm I have found it easier to not want to clean up the kitchen before bed. I do it anyway. Does anyone else have to have a clean kitchen before they go to b

I am still in awe that 2018 is just weeks away from being over. So friends are you ready for a year-end wrap up? (PS I am sorry to have two blogs so close together) Usually around this time of year I like to sit down and ponder the year, what's happened, how it's changed me, and what I plan on doing in the upcoming year. At the beginning of each year I set goals like most people and I look forward to how I can try to reach them. 2018. What a year and really where do I start? Everyone cycles through life with mostly happy years and memories, however I know I am not the only one to say that there are hard moments shuffled between those good times. This past year has had so many wonderful moments, but an equal amount of hard times. This year has pushed me to my limits in ways I didn't know I couldn't handle by myself. I cried a lot this year. I was hurt, I was broken, I was stretched in many different ways, I was torn apart. It seemed that "all bad things come in th